Sunday, August 30, 2009
holiday's gonna end soon..
it juz ended too fast perhaps..
cuz i still felt like staying up late in my cozy..
i still felt like studying at home..
i still felt like sleeping late playin dota..
and many things i wanna do during holiday..
but the fact is the fact..the only thing we cant buy is time..once over never will come bak u noe wad i mean?time really passes without us knowing..anytime..we're like old guys looking at our grandson maybe?appreciate time..argh..y am i telling this?all i wanted to say is holidays pass so fast..whereas schooling time is forever that slow..especially exam..enjoy life!!i had super headache today..and bad bad mood..i think i have offended many ppl that have spoken to me today..sorry ok?slept and study..cant study at all..my head is too painful..bloody hell..i doubt there's a tumor in my brain..choi choi choi...
when only misery will end?
i think mind is already ended..
and forever will nvr come bak..
cuz i have u in my life..
i can nvr be independent u noe..
u noe better than me that i needed u very much..-zkang-
10:09 PM
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
生命是多么的短暂。。
残酷的灾难与无限的温暖。。
都可以在我们这短短的生命里出现。。
最重要的不是什么荣华富贵。。
亦不是什么名声地位。。
而是你能不能珍惜一切。。
不要因为去过去了才来后悔。。
因为我和你都知道。。
过去的事是永远都不会回来的。。
不要因为做错了才来忏悔。。
一个小小的大失误。。
也可能会把你的一生毁掉。。
珍惜说有眼前的东西。。
无论是爱情或是友情。。
无论是财产或是地位。。
无论是美貌还是人缘。。
都要好好的珍惜。。
一旦错过了就难以挽回。。
在我们这一生。。
或许会遇到重重的困难。。
或是种种的困扰。。
终会把我们打倒在地上。。
阻着我们的去路。。
问题是我们肯不肯继续往前进。。
许多人因小小的困难而放弃。。
可能他们不觉得什么。。
但是也许这就改变他们的一生了。。
本来可以变得一个成功的好汉。。
却因为不肯吃那一点点的苦。。
可惜可惜。。
我们这一生就只有几十年。。
幸运的人可能可以达百吧。。
可是如果活在忏悔的生命。。
开心吗？ 满足吗？
我在这里只是想告诉大家。。
就算我们遇到多大的困难。。
别放弃。。
继续往前冲。。
我们会知道生命是多么的精彩。。
小弟的华语不是很好。。
但是又不想写英文。。
哈哈。。
请多多见谅。。
-政康-
9:08 PM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
wad did u feel after knowing something that u long for more than 3 long years had been ruined in 1 day?
7:43 PM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
good evening everyone..just wanna say something about today and about this year and about my life..life's is about up and down..but once it get down..it can really get real down..maybe it's juz me who is very unlucky..or maybe it's juz that this year wasn't my lucky year at all..or really maybe i suck..i would juz roughly talk about wad happened today..today was our st john divisional AGM..i was elected as the vice member-in-charge..a.k.a. vice chairman..ok end of story..i really learnt something now..the more u hope..the more disappointed u'll get..but maybe the unfortunate was really the best of u..who knows?god knows..and i believed..HE gave a great and superb opportunity for me to start over a new leaf..for me to improve..
to someone i really love..
and someone who i noe that loves me..
thx so much..
i love you..-zkang-
10:02 PM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
finally i'm home..though of discharging early..but they kinda delayed the process..so yeah..juz back home..so the doc said..
there's some erosion in the anus and in the stomach..
and if i dint take care of the erosion in the stomach..
it will become colon cancer..
that frightened me..
i still don wanna die!!
but nothing lo..
gave me like a kg of medicine..
haha..quite a lot..
they even record down the process when they check into my stomach..
oh my god..
it was way too
disgusting..
i juz finish eating..
and i felt like vomiting straight away..
now only i noe wad's in out body..
its freaking
awful and
disgusting..
i don felt like watching anymore..
yucksss..
ok i finish my meal..which is free from oil, spicy, and other harmful spices..yeah..which will be pretty boring and tasteless..but wad can i do..i don wanna end up having colon cancer..listen to the doc lo..he's my only hope i guess..haha..2 holes in my arm..kinda itchy..and irritating..afraid of scratching it..dunno wad can i do about it..got to go consume my load of medicine already la..
bye..
thx baby^^
thank you very much..^^-zkang-
9:23 PM
now i probably is in the hospital..typing my way into my lil blog..some kinda tube still attached to my fingers..rather painful but quite cool anyway..yeah i'm warded in the hospital but not for long..was warded in yesterday and will be discharged later..i went to this hospital, GLENEAGLES..yesterday noon, to chech with the intestine and gastric thingy specialist..cuz i was having problems in my stomach..so he suggested i could stay in this horrible hospital..and guess what, they made me pass motion for 5 times..blardy hell..i was like"u wan me to go for toilet for 5 time??""what if there's no 5 times??""do i really have to do this??"and wad made it more interesting was..they wan to check on the stools on the fifth time..asking me not to flush it off..haha..it juz felt awkward..but i manage to finish it in juz 4 times..cuz i was already begging her for mercy..i cant do it..i was pretty worn out after the 3rd time..i was asked to wear some sort of funny outfit and lie on a special bed..and was pushed into a special room..i was pretty nervous and super cold inside that my hands went freezing..the doctor poke a needle into my flesh to suck out sample of blood..but he said i'm too cold..causing the nerves to contract..not allowing the blood to come out..haha..i was like o~~~~~~~kay..then he switch place..and now it was much more painful..cuz there's barely flesh that part..looking at my blood comin out from my hand..i was afraid i'm gonna die of insufficient blood..wakaka..it sounds crazy..but that's wad i felt..do u ever see gynaecologist checking a pregnant mother's child?using the ultrasound device to check the baby inside??that's what they did to me..i was wondering..are they checking for babies too?haha..it must be ridiculous..and after that i don remember anything..they gave me some sort of gas to suck on..and the next moment..i realise it was over..i couldn't stand up..was quickly fainted on a wheel chair and off i go to my ward..i cant really remember what had happened..i cant remember how long have i been unconcious..it had been more than 3 hours..and i still remember the nurse said..it will be juz 30 minutes..lol...so yeah..i'm out of the creepy single room..out here typing..kinda missed home already..haha..i don really like this place..although the food here is not as bad..home sweet home..that is something that wont change..i wanna specially thank jia wei for visiting me ytd..spending his sleeping time to call me..i manage to wake him up at 6 o'clock..if not he'll be late for skul..and thank sandra for her support and care..yeah thx..speaking bout skul..i missed pj..i missed playin football with u guys..i missed quarreling about lil things when playin football..haha..i'll be bak in juz a short while..of cuz lar..its not like i'm having cancer and needed for a treatment..be bak by 2moro..hehe..-zkang-
10:26 AM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
prefect camp 2009..
starting from friday to saturday..
it's a short 2 days 1 nite camp..
the venue is in our own skul..
sien lo..own place again..
b4 the camp..
we had 4c vs 4k football..
hehe..
the result issss.........................................
4k 1-0 4c..
but i think the result is not satisfied with everyone..
cuz according to them..
the ball is not pumped enough..
haha...=.="
boring game though...
the camp starts at 1500 hours..
after about an hour..
we went to the hall for the 1st session..
and to our surprised..
a group of motivational talk guys were involved..
they were good..
all of them are from university malaya..
cool guys..
we played games..
gave talks to us..
until about 2200 hours..
should be camp fire..
but it rain suddenly..
although not heavy..
but quite cooling..
waited til 2245 i think..
they rain stopped..
the camp fire was resumed..
games and lame jokes were carried on..
games were played til 0130 hours..
then was given time to wash up and everyone had to lights off at 0300..
haha..so "early"
slept at 0315 i think..
then was awake at 0600 for juz a minute..
then was awake again by the super noise by yi seng..
at 0645..
the camp ends at 1330..
lol...very very very ringkas man..
sorry la..don feel like talking too much about the camp..
throughout was quite fun la..
out of expectation..
ok la..
ytd slept at 1900..
guess wad time i woke up..
the next day 0600..
i'm a super pig man..
slept for so long..
now cant sleep liao lo..
how??
2moro will go for hospital to check my stomach..
hope nothing's inside la..
bye bye la..
baby i really really love u..
today no moon oo..-zkang-
8:46 PM
Monday, August 10, 2009
its monday and i bet that many many students are complaining cuz this is the 1st day of skul..
i juz hate monday..don ask me why..
today kinda forgot to woke up..
forgot to wake up to cook..
so ended up sleeping til 0520 if i'm not mistaken..
together with my brother..
then set off at 0550..
today's time kinda moves slowly..duty time until the assembly ends is like never ending..and its like quite hot even though the sun's not rising yet..and students are just making so much noise that we cant even control them..grrr...not in the mood already la..my mood started to come back when i went back to class..kinda felt more comfortable there..classes until before recess was quite ok..juz ok..nothing much to talk about..but after recess..bloody hell...spot check..suddenly only..grrrr...firstly is 5k classroom..nothing found..i thought its over..then we were asked to do it in 2H and 2O classrooms..bloody hell..and they're having their nilam class..so they're not in class..we came back to report..and i thought i can go back to class..and again..asked to checked 4A................................=.=nothing much also..juz a laptop found with he broadband thingy still hot..we were released back to our class..10 minutes before the 2nd period's bell rang..went to chem lab..just got to sit down..bell rang..=.=during malay period is kidna cool..our malay teacher showed us the video bukit kepong..and we commented a lot and asked the teacher to show us..neh..the part where the komunis strip down someone's wife in the bus they tahan..haha..teacher was like.."u semua ini kotor betul laaaarrrrrrrrrrrrr..."haha..music & choir club was after our chinese class..but was delayed little.. cuz benny was late a little..so nothing much was discussed until the election of poses..sien..i got vice..ok..not gonna talk bout it..u can come and find me personally..but i'll not share any of my feelings in this blog..i don wanna say anything..
don regret-zkang-
8:41 PM
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
this morning dint go to skul..cuz i wanna practice my songs..especially my scales..practice for more than 2 hours..then 1000 hours..i went out from home..its at istana hotel..and it's in venue 4..i went up myself having no trouble finding venue 4..but finding trouble to relax and calm down..its chilling there..its cold there..its freezing there..my fingers are like ice..and i cant more freely..+ my nervousness..omg i tell u..i noe i'll have trouble playing the pieces especially scales..when's my turn..i saw jay yang..he had finished..how good..how i wished i had over..1st song..da da da da da da...wrong..da da da wrong..2nd song..da......da.......da da da........ wrong..............3rd song..da. da da da da wrong da da wrong da da da da daok..3 pieces..also got wrong!!!argh!!the scales..at 1st still ok ok..but when he asked me about dunno wad minor melodic..i completely forget which sharps to play..and the worst was..he said..lets try another wan..i knew i'm gonna fail..end of scales..sight reading and aural..ok la..only that aural 1 question wrong..cuz i forgot whether its baroque or classical..simply say wan..after that 20 minutes..
i felt like crying already..
i suck man..
if it wasn't for her..
i think i'm depressed til now..
very sad ah........
baby i noe now..i need u as much as u need me..
which is..A LOT..-ZKANG-
9:29 PM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
very long time dint post liao lo..
sorry everyone ya..
cuz everyday also lazy blog..
i'm still alive..
i'm not dead yet ok??^^
i'm still as healthy as a dead corpse..
joking..~~
agm juz over last monday..
nothing actually affected my everyday feeling..
cuz i noe she's still with me..
juz something random don bother that..
really the routine of my everyday life..
especially in skul..
is totally the same..
either looking at the teacher not listening..
talking to frens..
or reading novel..
damn sien man..
piano xm is on this comin wednesday..
shit lo..my scale still sux until cannot sux liao lo..
sei mou..
wish me good luck n pass this xm la..
practicing quite hard but not very very hard..
got a bit scare jor tim..
so many freaking ppl are sick now..
many skuls closed..
when's ours?
2moro still have to go to skul..
many things undone..
but i couldn't remember wad should i do...
and wad is waiting for me to be done..
if our skul is closed for that 1 week..
wow..wad a week that will be..
despite quarantined for 1 week..
i got to finish up all my works..
yeah..although i don really will do..
^^
2moro need to go to skul lo..
i go pack up my feelings 1st la..
its a hard thing to do..
but i'll try la.."try"
go la..
bye
baby, my love towards u will nvr decrease..but never ending increasing..-zkang-
9:39 PM
